Where is everybody? Where are the parents, the grandparents, the aunts and uncles, the family I thought would gather around us once we had children? It is a quiet question, and many mamas carry it for a long time before they say it out loud. I thought motherhood would bring everyone closer. I pictured family […]

One of the strangest parts of adulthood is realizing your parents are not only Mom and Dad. They are people. People with wounds they never healed, habits they never questioned, limitations they may or may not ever come to see clearly. And sometimes motherhood is the season that finally makes you see it. I did […]

I know how to make the plan. I know how to prepare, steward, and trust God with the outcome, even when the answer hasn’t come yet. But somewhere along the way, I realized there was a part of trusting God I hadn’t learned how to practice. What do I do when the waiting continues, the […]

There have been weeks lately where the weight of it all just sits on me. The kids and everything they need. A job search I am actively working on. A budget I am trying to get a real handle on, with debt that needs attention and bills that do not wait. A business I am […]

The laundry was still in the basket, half folded, when I sat down on the edge of the bed just to catch my breath for a minute. The kids were finally asleep. The house was quiet in that particular way it only gets quiet after 8pm, when the noise of the day has stopped but […]

I was standing at the sink again, hands in the water, the same argument starting in my head before I even noticed it had begun. What if I do not get everything done today. What if the schedule slips. Let me just run through it one more time so nothing falls apart. And then, for […]

I was standing at the sink again, hands in dishwater, praying the same prayer I have prayed most mornings this month. Lord, give me peace today. Behind me the noise was doing what it always does. Someone needed something. Something was spilled. The day had already started moving faster than I wanted it to. I […]

If He Is Lord, I Have to Stop Doing Certain Things I said it out loud this morning. Jesus is Lord. I said it while I was already three moves ahead in my head, running the schedule, bracing for what might go wrong, holding the whole day the way you hold something you cannot actually […]

I was lying in bed reviewing tomorrow again. Nothing was actually wrong. The schedule was set. The bags were packed. The plan was already good enough to work. But I kept running it anyway, checking it one more time, the way you check a lock you already know is locked. God began showing me the […]

Do I truly trust God, or do I only say I trust Him while still carrying the plan myself? Last night, after the kids were finally down, I prayed about it. I said the words out loud in the dark and asked God to handle it. I meant it when I said it. Then I […]